Not Dead

Nothing really to report. I ran twice last week and didn't really push myself. I just wanted to get out there and get moving. I came back and worked out. I need to do it more. No excuses!

I'll run today. I really have no reason not to!

Mind Over Body

Well the true reason for this title is because I have a test I have to study my rear off for so I am sad to admit my working out has faded a little in my list of important stuff. I ran today and worked out! I didn't the two previous days though. I know I suck! 

I have to figure out a way to balance everything. Working out is very important for many reasons. I love running because it takes my stress away. Today my husbands whore relatives stressed me out so I went running and by the time I got back I felt so much better and thought...its their lives if they want to be stupid it is not my problem. (though i think i need another run right about now) Running also get my blood flowing and my brain working. I should read my book and record myself reading it so I can listen to it as I run. I also know running gives me lots of energy and right now I need the energy!

I have to study though. I have a test coming up soon and need to learn all I can. I can't ignore that.

Last...I have a freelance job and well that is uber important because well it is money...and I NEED THE MONEY!! 

I will run tomorrow...right? I need a motivational book to get me pumped! I really want to run two miles for time and see how much I have improved! 

I am doing well. I have given up counting calories for now. I am watching what I eat and I try to limit the bad stuff. I think I have lost some. My clothes fit well. 

Thoughts About My Size

I look at myself and I realize that I can't beat myself up because in reality I am pretty much the size I was before I had Lilly. I can pretty much wear all of my pre-Lilly clothes so I guess that makes me happy. The thing is I was never really proud of my size then though. I was a size 7 in high school (and thought I was so fat), a size 9 when got married, and we'll say a size 11 now. Though I don't wear junior sizes anymore. I look back at pictures and I am just amazed at what I saw. I was actually skinny but I looked very unhealthy. My arms and legs were so thin (though I think that is the way it will always be). I don't know what size I would be content with. Ideally a size 3..right? lol Though I know my frame isn't made to be that size. Genetically I am not a size 3. I think a healthy, athletic 7 is as small as I could get... especially after Lilly made my hips a little wider than they use to be!

Thats all I have. I ran and worked out today and I am about to eat. I am starving!!

Diets Suck!

Okay that low carb stuff is just not for me! I can't do it. I don't need a whole piece of cake but I would like to allow myself a quarter cup of ice cream every now and then. I love and believe dark chocolate is extremely healthy. So bye-bye low carb crap!!!

Hello no more diet. I have looked up every single diet out there and I have decided to adopt different things from every plan to make my own. I'll enjoy ginger water whenever I want or don't. I'll enjoy a small chunk of dark chocolate when I feel the need. I'll try to stomach a tablespoon of flaxseed oil a day. I'll drink my coffee once if not more a day and not feel bad because I will use my unsweetened soymilk. I'll enjoy fatfree dairy when I want. I will limit my carbs mainly the sugary, bread, pasta carb crap. Again NO ALCOHOL! I will also limit my salt. This will be extremely hard because I love salt. I'll try to also include some of my husbands whey protein drink after a good work out. 

I just want to focus on great foods that are extremely good for me. 

Hooray! Sort of

I didn't do the 25 minutes but I did do the 20 minutes with the 6:1 ratio. I was so tired. My body was dying but I pushed myself. I am unsure why this was so hard on me but I am proud I finished. Afterwards I went to the work out area and did my arm stuff. I came home and did arm/core stuff. I hope and believe my arms will be super sore tomorrow! 

I am still doing my stretches and yoga multiple times a day to keep up my strength and flexibility. I stopped the carb thing yesterday and began again today. Funny how I can keep up with a calorie counting diet but carbs are killing me. I researched things a little more and I am happy because I am eating more veggies. 

My Goal for the Day is...

I will run today the 25 minute with a smaller ratio than I did the day before. I need to make out my 5k running plan. I need to see what has to be done so I can run that 5k entirely. 

I will post my 5K plan soon and try to abide by it. I hope I have enough time to have some wiggle room just in case. 

Today is an arm day so I will be pumping up my upper body.

GRRRRR!!!

So I went a few days off of my diet because of all my birthday celebration and now my weight is back up to where it was. I am sad and want to just give up but I won't!

I am trying something else right now. I am done counting calories for a while. For a week I am going to try to put my body into a state of ketosis so my body will eat my fat! I know I am the type of person who will give up if I don't get see some results with this whole weightloss thing. I want to go a week at least if not two. After that I will allow myself more veggies and stuff. I know this may sound bad but I will be eating healthy, lean meats and low fat cheeses. They say that I should be able to also have a decrease in appetite. I think I need to keep my carbs under 20 grams. 

I will keep up my exercise program. I ran today and ran harder than I have in a while. I worked out a little and plan to do some more later. 

I do feel stronger so that is great!!